I've never played poker, but I have a feeling the hand I've been dealt at this time in life is just the pits.
A few weeks ago I was talking my friend through some lady and he said, "The only girls our age are married, on missions, or you!" I laughed, because well. it was funny. and truer than true. but lately, I've been feeling that hit me right in the gut. (the situation, not what he said, I'm not even almost mad about what he said, cause like I said, it's true!)
I'm at the most awkward stage of my life. 80% of my good friends are on missions, and when they come back, they will proceed on with school. Me? I'm done with what school I want for the time being (and probably forever if we're being honest), and I don't see myself going back in the near future. I have a lot of free time, and I'm not a poor starving student. (#realtalk) I've always been like, Oh when Jessy gets back it'll all be better. but then it hit me, it won't be that different. she'll go on with college and yada yada, and I'll stay the same.
I'm just at this stupid awkward phase of life and I'm ready for it to be over. I'm not saying I want to get married or anything, but I guess I just wouldn't mind some change.
As Randy Pausch said, in The Last Lecture, “We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand.”
I know Heavenly Father dealt me these cards for a reason, so I guess I'll just have to deal with it for now.
Now WHO WANTS TO GO TO SAN FRANSISCO WITH ME?